I was very tempted to start this entry with "dear diary…". I mean, really, I've become convinced that when it comes to matters of the heart I was romantically retarded or something. Yes, I hear the baying of people shouting how "un-politically correct" that statement is. To you I say: "get over it!" A very dear friend of mine is currently going through something very similar to what I've experienced when it comes to relationships. We console ourselves with Jack Daniels and the odd chocolate, gravitating between thoughts of "what did I do wrong?" and "… She is a narcissistic cow and she doesn't deserve me."
Of course, these are feelings that that other person will never know –, or care – about. Ultimately, you can boil it down to a ridiculous case of venting, with a healthy side order of self-pity. So, if I were to impart a little of the wisdom I might have gained along the way, I'd point you to a timeless classic by one of my favourite artists, Billy Joel: "don't go changing to try to please me; you've never let me down before. And don't imagine you're too familiar…" Yeah, the song is "Just the way you are", and that's the way you should accept yourself – and your significant other.
So I'm rambling. Big deal! I've had a crappy week. People don't keep their word, things sometimes don't happen the way you'd like them to. Get over it, get on with it! I'd say this as much to someone reading this as I do to myself… everyday. Where to from here? Who the hell knows. It's your life, so live it! Maybe you thought that this was the love of your life? Obviously, that feeling wasn't mutual. Don't be scared to put your toe in the water again. Sure there are sharks, but there is also incredible beauty just waiting to be found by you. If my unapologetic self-indulgence has inspired you to fight another day, I'm glad. If not… Well let's just say that the lesson may come from another source. Goods night and good luck.
